Reflection: The Eviction I Felt Coming
I’ve had this recurring sense—almost like déjà vu—that I was going to be kicked out of the house without notice. Not in a dramatic, prophetic kind of way, but in a quiet, subconscious whisper that kept nudging me long before anything happened. It wasn’t just intuition—it was pattern recognition.
As an INFJ, my mind runs silent algorithms. I often don’t realize it at the time, but my subconscious is collecting signals:
- Delay in responses
- Shifts in tone
- Subtle changes in how people speak to me or stop updating me
- Bureaucratic avoidance
- “We’ll let you know” energy that means they won’t
Those little things accumulate and form a hidden shape in my head. I don’t always have conscious access to it—but I feel it. I knew they were going to pull the trigger fast and messy. My logic brain said, “No, they’ll follow the timeline.” But my body, my nervous system, and my deeper mind knew better. That’s why I wasn’t shocked. I was heartbroken—but not surprised.
That night I was forced out, I remember thinking:
“If you had just given me a little time to gather myself… I would’ve left peacefully.”
That statement wasn’t new. I had already said it before it happened. Because my subconscious had already lived it.
This isn’t magic. It’s not prophecy.
It’s the outcome of a mind trained to survive chaos by predicting it.
And honestly… that’s what INFJ cognition feels like most days:
Knowing before you know.
Feeling it in your gut before it lands in your inbox.
This entry is part of the “Premonitions” section—moments where my subconscious knew before I did, and my INFJ pattern recognition outpaced my conscious reasoning.